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Sigh

Time to get to work

Things to do:

- Stop eating unnecessarily omgwtf
- Lose more weight by June and control my diet!!!
- Drink only plain water
- No food/drinks after 5.30pm!! Unless due to reasons like staying back later after school… Max 7pm.
- Eating cereals for recess at least twice a week. (Need to try harder for this argh)
- stop snacking on candies!!! And sweet stuffs.
- Eat lesser have a smaller diet. Don’t ever finish your plate of food lol.

-Stop fiddling with my phone and start studying and revising. I just wasted one whole day since morn till now… 10.24pm omgwtfsrsly.
- Stop bearing grudges…. Something I need to work very hard on esp bc of A. There’s still this thang there. Like his sight still turns me off and gets on my nerves. LOL. Like everything he do/say annoys me!!! Omg ok idk what to do about it.
- Go to church more often. I’m so grateful that B invited me there last week. The feeling is omg nice. I feel goooood ahahaha. God is great.
- Read regularly
- Take notes in class.
- Be serious during Chinese, English and SS classes. Those are the ones I’d be sleeping/talking/daydreaming and anything except paying attention.
- Be nicer….. Ok this is hard. LOL.

Jogothon

Walked with Nikki and Brandon all the way and while nearing the finishing line, W was there. So I quickly called Brandon over hahaha and talked to him about random things and then W was like, eh girls second placing eh or whatever shit and looked at me…. Faints.
Haha before that Nikki also saw Matin and quickly called Brandon also LOLOL Brandon was like our shield hahahaa it was so funny.

Thursday 9 March 2012

So I broke down in the morning on this day because W & M ‘s picture on fb and people’s comments suddenly overwhelmed me. I couldn’t take it and I was all torn…..
I think it was because previously, whenever I see them I quickly shove the thought into a tiny corner of my head and notttttttttt think about it an gradually I kind of forget. Which is good. But this time, it is like everything came crashing down. I just needed to cry harder once more. And that was the last straw. After that, it became back to normal again. See them, felt immune. I could even go to his fb and see that pic of her hugging him but he didn’t hug back though lol. And I was just like, “………………” literally.
Not sad. Nor happy. Numb. No ache anywhere.

Shekirah Church

So yesterday (sat 10 mar) Benedict invited me to his church and we met up at Bishan first to go together.
Haha he was a bit later so I waited for him outside breadtalk and he went to buy bread LOL.
Hmmm on the way there even though he was friendly it was awkward… Like there was uncomfortable silence on the train LOL.
During the service I sat with Amanda and Ben was behind me.
When we entered the people there were like asking if I was his girlfriend lololol.
Emerson also went, “New one ah. “
LOL.
But idk I couldn’t really feel God tbh…. I can’t wait for project revival.
It was….. Fine.